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(no subject) [Apr. 14th, 2007|06:12 pm]

 

{to be dark skinned and barefooted, with a laugh that stops a strong mans heart from fear and some great and dangerous charm, to sleep within velvet tents and allign their poles with the star-points of constellations, to light fires of sandalwood that make thick, sweet smoke as they burn.  I want to be there, where beauty is boundless.}

{the scarves that filled my sleeves have faded from their vibrant colors and rich tones, the doves, with their restless wings, that burst from my palms have flown. and i alone am not enough. My throat aches from too many sights of silver moonlight pooling in the folds of the sea, the waves heave as if kneaded by some unseen hand...}

{what occupies my mind are relentless reels of constant and unquenchable fastination. without them, what would ever capture me? I need to be bound and binded,  to move with less fury, and without fastinations to feeble the strong insistence of my heart, to  to make it quivering and wide-eyed, surely i would be at all times blazing, surely then all lives would lose me, nothing would be left of me to remind you of my slow-smiling observation but a sighing breath lost in the wind as it cools the heat of your skin and your parched lips, like salt and saffron, like silk to sand}

{i love your poets soul, your heart is roaring and lionhearted, far beyond the strikes of city clocks.  It is a stunning spirit, as deep and sheer as the note of a harp or a golden stitch}

{ i see some of this world reflected in you, you reside there in your mind, and through your eyes I view it as if trapped and webbed within some telescopic trance.  There is a dual element to you that is both celestial and bestial, that revolves like planets and circles like wolves, and upon both planes it pulls me.  I wonder if it is something in the blood, and born to you, or if you picked up its gold pieces from between the pages you caress, to wear like medals and melt into armor.  I am drawn to people of passion, it is the orbit i respond to most, the way the burning ends of buildings somehow find eachother in a blaze....}

{ i have been writing so much now that i feel bottomless, as if some stranger has lowered a silver bucket down my throat for me to swallow, and the words are drawn up like water, they are tipped and poured upon the pages...}

~E

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(no subject) [Apr. 12th, 2007|09:16 pm]
OH.
GOD.
i have never been so supremely stressed out in my entire life. at this very moment i am just trying to concentrate on keeping all of my synapsis from firing at once.  goodbye, hair. goodbye, motor skills.



Dear people of the Livejournal Community:
if anyone knows of a particular person, preferably female, with fifteen years of dance experience, who would be willing to be trained as my "oh-shit-emergency-understudy" for the ballet version of Cinderella to be performed in..oh...lets say...THREE WEEKS, please contact me at the soonest possible date. time is of the essence.  the herbal essence, because if i dont find a bloody ballerina, i am going to be bald as an egg and will never buy any nice smelling shampoo ever again. (TANGENT: what happened to those commercials, anyway? they were funny. ok, they were uncomfortable, and they made me ask alot of questions at a very early age about some rather intimate topics that im sure my parents would have prefered never having to address, but still...sort of amusing.)
I CANT EVEN THINK ANYMORE MORE LATER SELF DESTRUCT IN FIVE....
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(no subject) [Apr. 9th, 2007|02:42 pm]
ohhh livejournal. it has been so long! *gives embrace inflamed with long repressed passion*

i have been writing so much lately, i stay up nights filling journals.  i sit in my window and want to swim into the sunset.  the limping wind cant keep up with me, i out run its feeble breathing....

(the delicacy of the morning is like lace in light)
The Frantic Hindrance of Freedom

The time I take to lose myself in leaving!
windows open, always dreaming, I lean out so
breathless! Beaming! The sound of night will call me in
the short winged birds all tuck their chins
so little flight, they barely lift but do they
dream as I do? Lean as I do?

off of branches, out of windows, under skies and under stars?
wirey limbs that reach so far!
We know that shortened wings only hinder flight! Not minds, not mine
The trains are whistling and I see the smiles
of winding track and wonder if birds follow
hollow sounds the way that I do?

Such a train! Bellows deep and with such singing!
Wishful thoughts are always best to the tune of something left unseen, unseeing
winding forward, she weaves with a purpose I don't yet possess
but will when I secure a seat, palm to chin and tear to cheek,
those lanes, those roads are more enchanting when I
have no foreknowledge of where they are leading!
leaning farther, I can see her
billowed smoke is to the ripples of a dress
a cloak of smoky lace caresses, streams backward,
charcoal hair!
a snake shedding an old life, she pushes forward, she is
the vibrant thunder of a silent storm.

I whisper, TAKE ME! Wherever you are going, take me,
I want to wrap myself in those charcoal folds and go,
With you I'll split the roads!
And with these thoughts my feet take flight,
there is long wind beneath short wings!
Under glowing sky I am running,
and those are only humble stumblings,
but they will take me where I'm going!

To where hearbeat becomes hearbeats!
To where lonely becomes living!


(how i wish i could be masked and moving in the crowd of a masquerade. i will make my own mystery)
have a good day, all of you ^__^
~E
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(no subject) [Apr. 3rd, 2006|06:34 pm]
[Tags|]
[mood | content]

I think I'll start this up again.

I mean, there's no reason not to.

why did I stop? was I bored? I don't know. oh wait, im bored NOW. ok, moving on.

THE PLAY IS OVER, ALL FORMER MEMBERS THANK WHATEVER DIETY YOU WORSHIP! that director guy..i mean..he wore the asshat as a permanent appendage! It was just growing out of his fucking head!

right now i keep moving my desk away from stevie because he wont keep his stupid elbow off of it. and now he's just following me with his desk. we are approaching the other side of the room now.

Esther: "um..your elbow...YOUR ELBOW"
Stevie: " all you had to say was hey, could you move your elbow? THATS ALL THATS ALL YOU HAD TO SAY THATS ALL YOU HAD TO FUCKING SAY now what NOW WHAT BITCH"

i am so afraid of him. and sometimes we swear at eachother without even really saying anything that makes any sort of sense.

jack whites band " the raconteurs" is going to be the greatest.

elbow update: now he is rubbing his elbow ON me. get it the eff off! oh this is..this is just too much...i am defiled.

i viciously miss jonathan, as yesterday was our one and a half year anniversary. its really fantastic, i just have to say. and you know what? i still LIKE him. its still EXCITING. { at times we confuse the vine around the tree as an embrace instead of a suffacation. on the surface, how is it possible to tell what stifles growth and what supports it? but now I know, and it is this}

i feel like playing video games, at many different degrees of my own expertise most ranging from bad to mediocre, until my brains run out of my ears.

i pretty much update these things for my own amusement.
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(no subject) [Sep. 20th, 2005|12:27 am]
MY MOM
SHE GOT ENGAGED
AND HE PROPOSED IN OAKHURST GARDENS
AND IM REALLY REALLY HAPPY FOR HER.
AND SHE HAS THE MOST MASSIVE SPARKLER SERIOUSLY I NEARLY WENT BLIND. SHE IS BLINGING IT ALL THE WAY.
its really cool to get to see my mom get married. I didnt really get to go to the first one. the whole not being born thing got in the way.
my mom got engaged on the same day that lorelei gilmore got engaged to luke. this is carrying the me-and-mom-are-the-real-life-gilmore-girls thing slightly too far.
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(no subject) [Sep. 12th, 2005|06:39 pm]
jonathan is the uber human.
{ I feel more inconstant than the wind }

teach me how I should forget to think!

{ the moon was as big as your eyes that night, there is a gleam of silver to them like a bright and precious shadow}
the chill on my face and the warmth in my heart is as bound to you as the hot smell of flowers is to artboy, the smell of earth and incense and rain when i press my face into his neck, like a merchant arriving to port from months at sea, he always smells like warm, far-away places.

i miss so many people right now, i feel pulled to anyone i have ever met, wanting to hold them tightly. Ive come to realize that even the people i dont like very much know me better then most, and i appreciate that.
i miss big alex and caitlin and jonathan and caleb and judy, i miss judy's warm kitchen that smelled like hot bricks and wet clay and tea and big cats. I miss funny alex and her cool clothes and spontenaity and easy laughter. I miss caitlin, and talking to caitlin, and her strange comments that are sometimes gross, the sheer lovability of her. i miss long talks with caleb where were always one step ahead of eachother and laughing before a joke is made, because we already know what the other is thinking. and i miss icecream with katie and teasing evan and having him push me roughly.
{missing Jonathan is just a no-brainer, but he is the chili cheese on the big hot dog of missing people}

but i went to judys artshow and it was incredible! she works so hard to make so many beautiful things, her sculptures always remind me of miniature beds with the corners tucked under. and john petersons huge, soaring pots with that are an impossible shade of black like raven wings, and the spots of unpainted glossy wax are like birds. the movement of his work is so enchanting, you cant help but to fly along with it for a little while.
i miss pottery, i miss talking to judy and bailey. they are such good, calm company, giving good advice, it is so calming to just sink your hands into something cold and strange and make it come to life.

i even miss jess and i just saw her not two days ago! pushing her car into the parking lot of mutual federal was an adventure. steering wheels are tricky, you have to pull them alot harder than i thought to get them to go in the direction you want. i really need to build some arm strength. i wish i could steer with my legs. then life would be easy. well, sort of. the steering wheel might complain from my steel, bond girl-like grip. also: CACTUS BLOSSOM FUCKING YES.

annnd something i havent done in awhile:
THINGS I REALLY LOVE BUT DONT WANT PEOPLE TO FIND OUT ABOUT:
ashlee simpson (she makes me wanna lala)
fashion (you got it, the runway shows, the huge-o magazines full of adds, the designers, i know all the names of all the hot models)
oprah (never miss an episode)
those little dogs with the bobbly heads (can also keep me mesmerized for hours)
taco bell (not much of a secret considering my near-daily consumtion, furthering my hypothesis that i will be a monster when my metabolism slows down, curse the day)
yappy, shivery little fluffy dogs that celebrities buy (especially when they put them in cute little clothes and shoes and hats and the more obnoxious the name, the better, like foo foo and muffy and princess tickles)
lifetime movies and books for grannys, like the hot flash club
bad talk shows like montel (aka not-sure-who-the-baby-daddy-is-because-you-cant-keep-it-in-your-pants? PATERNITY TEST T.V)

have a good week babays. and dont think that this world is so bad. new orleans will get better, we can only work towards and for. have faith in our ability to want to do well. people are not basically bad. keep your chin up and your hands open.
~E
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(no subject) [Sep. 8th, 2005|10:32 am]
bed never feels as soft and awesome as in the morning, when you have to get out of it.

I'm so tired!

i want it to be october, i want to see Jon. our breakup lasted about 3 days. that was such a terrible idea. its funny how we felt the same degree of destitution but reacted as opposites, i slept for hours like a hibernating bear, he stayed up nights and didnt eat anything. I guess we cant just turn off everything simply so that we dont have to deal with how much it hurts to be apart. I am being blunt and non-poetic about this because i am angry that i cant be with him all the time, but so thankful that we have eachother. I am lucky lucky lucky to have someone who loves me the way that he does, i felt so empty without having that, even though i know i was never really without it.
oh well. two years, and then england.
and only one month until october.

i miss stevie! come back to school stevie! oh goodness, right now i just miss everyone. and alex. i want superpowers.

shut up shut up mr. dodrill.
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(no subject) [Sep. 6th, 2005|12:51 pm]
The government spent a fortune leasing cruise ships to house Katrina refugees. Hardly anyone is taking up the offer. Hmm, why would black Americans be wary about white people trying to get them on large ships?

just a thought,
~E
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(no subject) [Aug. 22nd, 2005|07:20 pm]
it is perfect outside, the sky is on fire, and there are so many perfect hidden places in my yard, covered in leaves, bending boughs, petals in my palms.

last night i dreamed of you and woke with a hot, bruised feeling under my skin. i am restless, ready for the end of summer and the settling of winter, i miss feeling calm, quiet, cool, there is too much heat everywhere, in the air, in the skin. i never sleep during the summer months. something, subconciously, prevents it.

i wish everyone could have my view of the sky right now, i know that all of those colors have names but at this moment, they seem as new and stunning as if i had never opened my eyes before in my life.

i miss salsa, judy's art class, and jonathan vriese, who unwisely ate all of my gummy grapefruits. (of course, because he is the uber human, it was hardly a deal breaker.)

its hard to write here, there are lots of little stone fairy statues watching me, reading their little stone books, which i would assume they never get any farther in.  that must suck.  you have my sympathy, fairys.

i dont know what this is about, making over the library to look like a garden, with fairys and gnomes and kites and little glass globes on sparkly thingers.  whats going on? WE ALL KNOW THIS ISNT OUTSIDE. no little kid is going to wander in here and be all like "garden paradise OMG OMG OMG" maybe i need fresh air. i can feel my brain cells constricting like a kid with asthma in a field of milk weeds.

in other news, i am totally pissed. this really doesnt happen very often.  i get passionate, i get irate, but mostly i get over it.  not this time. this time, im handing out ass whuppins and lollipops, and im all outta lollipops. (and for all you bless-your-hearts out there, that just leaves asswhuppins. bless your hearts.) honestly, the only thing i hate about school is that kids dont treat eachother like they should.

Fact: the opal is my favorite stone, it seems to blush and turn pale as if it had a soul.

~E
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(no subject) [Aug. 13th, 2005|09:01 pm]
such a summer.
jonathan was here all last week, it was mi amore ^______^ *widest smile in the universe, expanding and stretching the entire world until it fills all its corners*

i am so lucky and so happy.
and caitlin was here, but not for as long, and we are not in love with eachother. but it was still fun.
virginia was beautiful, was calm, was settling. summer makes me feel restless, but i spent the last of the summer days climbing out onto tin roofs at night, waiting for morning, listening to rain. i watched bond movies with my grandad, and i was given some of grandmothers jewelry. her opals and the war pins that her boyfriends gave her. there were lots of pins. apparently, my grandmother was pretty hot stuff.

jon really likes mezzaluna. but he calls it "the m place" because he can never get the name quite right. the waitress gave us free triple choclate obsession cake because i wrote that we were celebrating our anniversary on the paper tablecloth, just to be cute. then she saw it and anyway...we tipped her well.

i strangely miss all the kids in geometry. i really liked them! i wish i could put everyone in the world on one of those timed dating reels accept not for dating, just for talking. then wed have a conversation for twenty minutes or so until the dinger went off and everyone would shift. i really love to get to know people, and it seems such a waste, with so many of them, and only being able to know so few.

a bird hurt its wing hitting our glass door today, i put it in the ferns so it wouldnt get hot..or eaten. it slept and i sat with it awhile. when i came back outside later, it was gone. i wonder if i helped it? id like to think so.

i miss you.
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the warmth of the storm [Jul. 3rd, 2005|12:39 pm]
When I am with you I cant stop talking, cant stop laughing, something comes loose and comes apart, I have no time to think out an expression. i feel like the zipper on the back of a dress, being pulled.
{breathe, baby, just breathe}
I am restless again. it comes and goes. I'm beginning to think that the wind carries it, like changing winds bring it to me, drifting like the smell of cut grass through the screen of my open window.
Or maybe it was you, and the way you leaned back, eyes gleaming like a grassfire, that made something deep switch on again, that made the wind rub me the wrong way. Scratchy and delicate like a paper crane, so light it is almost undetectable.
Everything feels hot enough to be heavy, hot enough to fall out of the sky. I remember your arms when you were cooking, I stare out at the violet ash moon, I lay on the grass and let the flowers touch my face. The heat makes everything bend. I am bending.
I miss you, I feel like wispering into the ground, "do you remember? Do you remember when he was lying here too?"
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(no subject) [Jun. 26th, 2005|11:46 am]
oh, business business.

time to fun-it-upp because its summer. freak fever? WHAT?? I dont even know. But I still kinda feel like i am inside of a volcano.

in other news, i am brave. and stevie is a slut bag.

PEOPLE DO DESPERATE THINGS WHEN THEIR TEMPERATURES RISE, LIKE PUT ICECUBES IN THEIR UNDERPANTS.
is it too hot to fight my brother? or just hot enough? yesterday we had an argument over whether our cousins had their new years eve party at their house or someone else's. 0_0 seriously, at the time, it seemed really really important that I win. But lots of things seem important when your dad bought mint chocolate chip icecream instead of peppermint. oh how my blood boils. mercy.

"shut up or ill put the icecream down your pants!"
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because im really that excited about doing one of these!! ARRAARAA [Jun. 22nd, 2005|09:54 pm]
[mood |so bored part of me is dying]
[music |mean girls movie muziquesss]

so ive almost made it a rule not to fill out these silly silly questionaires. but its summer, so lets shake things up and go a little crazy. life is too short kids. and alright, i really like to fill these out. ill be honest.

A - Age you got your first kiss: 11... Christoph, while in Austria. technically my frist boyfriend also, but at 11 it doesnt count. in a foreign country, no less! oh, the ws of being a not-quite-teen.
B - Band listening to right now: jamie cullum, not a band however. a badass jazz singer, british and short. ^__^ on the CD cover he is stomping on his piano. awww.
C - Crush: jonners. well, he is my boyfriend. but i am not allowed crushes on anyone else.
D - Dad's name:GEORGE! but me and my brother call him porridge.
E - Easiest person to talk to: jon, caitlin, stevie, and more, i am lucky i have many
F - Favorite ice cream: chocolate fudge peanut butter. CANT TOUCH THIS.
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: beaaarrrrs. or the gummy worms covered in the sweat tart powder stuff.
H - Hometown: tons-of-funsie, IN
I - Instruments: everything from violin to piano to guitar, ive dabbled in all
Currently: voice! and guitar.
J- Junior High: Burris
K - Kids: excuuuzze?? what?? OH!! right. siblings would be a better way to phrase that. SIBLINGS. a brother, charles, otherwise known as sonic youth, or chuck, or charlie horse
L - Longest car ride ever: In terms of time: colorado. around 14-16 hrs. a bathroom stop nightmare, and the only time i have ever gotten car sick.
In terms of annoyance: from north carolina back to muncie, waking up at an ungodly hour and all other occupants of the car were (for reasons that still baffle me) really freaking jolly. and i? i was not.
M - Mom's name: Ann
N - Nicknames: Elizabeth, Ster (by my brother, to get my attention. like this: STERRR!!) missy,girl, and "lady" by jon
O - One wish:i am constantly wishing. but i wish most often for strength.
P - Phobia[s]: centipedes and millipedes (anything with too many legs that moves all ripple-y gives me the freaks) zombie movies and never getting married.
Q - Quote of the Moment: " clear as purple crayon!" " and "im ashton kutcher, just call me kooch!" also, anything said in batman begins, which is kickass and you should all go see it!
R - Reason to smile: uhhhh summer, jon, good at geometry as opposed to sucking as i feared i would, people making me laugh
S - Song you sang last: the phantom of the opera soundtrack. the whole thing. in the shower, while i was cleaning my room, in the car, in public, everywhere.
T - Time you woke up today: 6:45 baby.
V - Vegetable you dislike: uhhh cooked carrots EWW GROSS EWW and CORRRRNN SICKKK
U - Unknown fact about me: i do things with my feet even when it would be more convenient to do them with my hands, i love to dance salsa and ballet and write almost constantly.
W - Worst habit(s): you mean aside from drug addictions of course. (HA! wow totally kidding.) i take too many naps! and eat too many sweets!
X - X-rays you've had: left foot.
Y - Yummy food: spicy north indian chicken curry, french bread, cheese, fruit! SUBS! EVERYTHING CHOCOLATE OMYGOODNESS I JUST REALLY LIKE FOOD ALOT I GUESS WHOA CAPSLOCK.
Z - Zodiac sign: saggitarius, and very steriotypically so, if you read the information in the pamphlets. the zodiac pamphlets. uhhh yeah.

THE END
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(no subject) [Jun. 14th, 2005|05:28 pm]
[mood | just waiting]
[music |michelle branch-a surprisingly good CD!]

rarararara

i went to michigan and now i am back.
i am frusterated.
i am tired.

ge-om-et-ry uuuggghhhh shapes and circles shapes and circles. im about to stab myself in the eye with the protractorrrrrr. but the people in our class are funny. we have boredom induced converations. basically, none of us would talk to eachother if we werent so bored. its like how people on desert islands fall in love with eachother just because there is no one else around. like..."hey, youre here, Im here....ok." thats basically the gist of it. really, i dont know if people on desert islands would fall in love with eachother. i hope no one in our geometry class falls in love with eachother, thats wierd. ok this whole paragraph just got uncomfortable.

it was so beautiful outside today, i lay on my porch and ate nectarines for almost an hour.
the hammock is broken! AHHHH NAPTIME IS OVER.

it is so strange, how going to michigan makes me feel like ive lost years of time here, even though everything stays the same. i feel the gaps between people more. i miss your conversation.

things that stay the same:
the naked guy is still naked (a little naked, alot naked, WHATS THE DIFFERENCE??? he likes to switch it up alittle now and again. i swear the other day he was only wearing kneesocks and a pair of suede chaps. oh help.)
my window is still open

the window has gotten much use lately. i need to think. thinking is easier barefoot, swinging from a high up place. i think shoes hinder thinking. i am glad i had the time to think on this in michigan. and i did. in fact, i couldnt stop. it made me miss jonathan more, even though he was right next to me.
i dont know what the right choice is, i dont know if i should even attempt this. i am so afraid of you! you terrify me, the only person who can make waves inside my mind without moving, without speaking.

but you just bring me down, {bring my stars to the ground.}
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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2005|12:17 pm]
I am almost certain that I only learn one thing a year, and then it takes me about a year to figure out what that one thing was.

{naked guy, lets get snap-happy with a pair of trousers. RIGHT NOW.}

i just watched eternal sunshine, and it makes me both want to protect my memory and have relief in release from it.

my earring is gone, but im pretty sure it was worth it.
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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2005|12:34 am]
DEAR HEDGE CLIPPING NIEGHBOR, OBSESSED WITH HIS LAWN:
i realize that your manhood depends on the even level of your grass, but seriously, its 1:00 AM and I need to sleep. PUT THE CLIPPERS DOWN PUT THEM DOWN NOW BEFORE I CHUNK UP YOUR BUSHES WITH SOMETHING RUSTY AND UNPROFESSIONAL.


DEAR GUY WITH SQUEALING TIRES IN POOL PARKING LOT:
that was pretty amazing. a whole 30 seconds of pure rubber-and-asphalt without going anywhere. sorry about what my dog did. sorry about your foot. maybe if you werent so loud, my dog wouldnt drop duece wherever you are stepping.

DEAR DEREK WITH THE DOG NAMED RACCOON:
sorry i laughed at your dogs name. waffle isnt a very good name for a dog either, really. (but at least my dog is toasty gold so it makes sense, whereas its pretty obvious that your dog isnt a raccoon. OR IS IT.) i never knew that a raccoon could love a waffle so....intimately. in closing, it is wierd to be introduced to someone while theyre dogs are getting serious! we tried to ignore it, but luckily both of us had a good enough sense of humor to realize that we couldnt.

DEAR GUY AT THE END OF THE STREET WHO STILL WONT PUT ON ANY CLOTHES:
lets be honest. past-your-prime.
and yet more and more comfortable with less and less clothing. its amazing, really, how you can have nothing but your kneecaps covered and yet you smile like youre wearing a three piece suit. naked weather? naked never!

everything is so saturated with awesome that even the stars seem wet.
summer makes me worried, restless, living.

you are honest, unfazed, waiting.
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(no subject) [May. 28th, 2005|10:34 pm]
[mood | inspired!]

THEY graduatorred!!

i will miss all of them (especially some of them) so much. it is so inspiring to me, that i am watching people that i know go off and start to do what they have dreamed of doing. i feel honored to be able to see that, to be someone that maybe they will remember.

i hope that none of them ever do what so many sometimes have to, to settle for so much less.

this thing that used to seem so big to me, is now obtainable. the gap is closing. graduation gave me that out-of-control feeling that everything is moving forward, even the clouds seem to be moving faster yesterday.
( and i know that that is wrong, that clouds move around us, but because of all this forward-thinking i cant help imagining that everything suddenly moves in the same direction that we are all going.)

today, the pulse of life no longer feels sluggish.
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(no subject) [May. 24th, 2005|05:57 pm]
arrrr. everybody in the whole world is getting on my nerves today.

DUM.
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(no subject) [May. 22nd, 2005|03:09 pm]
D.C was uuuhhhh yeeah.

It felt SO GOOD to get out and stretch my legs and never have time to stop moving.
In the midst of bust streets, quiet thoughts:

I only think of myself as vulnerable when i am not moving. Somehow the act of standing still makes me MORE aware of the power of things moving around me, the length of these vaulted cielings. After this, standing up, walking, arms swinging and feet slapping, feels courageous and purposeful. But I don't feel quiet here, and I could never live here, in a place where lights flicker constantly and people seem to move simply for the sake of movement, and anyone who sits still becomes an oasis, a place for eyes to travel to.

i finally got jonathan's letter, and it gave me the sense that i have never had a love that i felt i could fill my hands with. {petals in my palms}

I watch her want him and because of this, she holds herself closer. I think:
I remember that walk, the way they move uncertainly, between eachother and around, like any space that closes between them will cause injury, any close encounter would burn the skin. All THIS, even though in their minds they visualize no separation.

To be remembered: The girl on the subway with the sharo nose, soft hair, and sticky out ears who smiled so beautifully. A REMINDER that beauty comes from a light-in-the-eyes, a lit lamp of life and love that cannot be falsified.

( now i am freaking out because i cant finf my sunglasses LKSDJLKJLGAKG. oh wait. here they are.)

up next: LUKE SKYWALKER. WHO IS YOUR DADDY?!?!

~E
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(no subject) [May. 18th, 2005|06:42 pm]
DEAR D.C

you are hot, and sweaty, and people spit on you openly. GROSS GROSS GROSS. but youre black people are super friendly. cheers.

i saw a couple-a dinOHsaurs today. and an art museum, and i was inspired. and lost. but really, it was part of the whole experience. i also lost control of my skirt. it got a rebelios case of the flips, sticks, and tricks while i was on-camera. DUM.

i loved the art museum. i also got to know the security guard pretty well, considering i lost my way. EVERYTHING IS SO BIG THERE SHUT UP. i think i asked her ate times. im also hungry.

i got chatted up by a funny little german woman in the peacock room. she had ALOT of energy and ALOT of accent. she was like "vhat ees your favoohreet part of zees? VHAT EES EET VHAT VHAT VHAT??"
me: *PANIC AAAH* um...i love the portrait of the princess. i wish i knew the story behind her and the painting."
german spazOUT: " THEN FIND OUT!! FIND OUT! NOOOWW!!"
then she grabbed me by the arm (ZEE ARRRM) and shook me out into the hall to quest for the mystery princess. after which she promptly told me she had to find her husband, and by find i guess she ment she had to run, all over the place, in a zigzag, not really going anywhere.

checka,
~E
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